PACKING AND LEAVING

"How do I start packing?"

"When should I start packing?"

"Do I need this? Do I need that?"

"Am I even ready for this?"

"Do I have enough money?"

"Do I have the courage to do this all by myself?"

The amount of questions I keep asking myself the past days, as the D-Day , I don't know what it is, I feel rather anxious than I am excited. Where am I going you ask? Yes, after years, I'm finally going back to Korea! To do what? Yes, you got it right! To study!

How's the preparation going to ask me?

Well, you see, I'm not if my preparation is complete or not. Do I have enough supply of everything that I need but as the day is coming, it feels like I'm no longer excited for anything.

Anyways, so due to this New Norm, they need every travelers to get a Covid-19 Test within 72 hours before the flight, which I would have to take the test tomorrow, am I ready? No, I definitely am not ready. But then, ready or not, I still have to do it, right? It shouldn't hurt that much right? The result would come out just fine, right? I hope so. Praying so hard for tomorrow to go smoothly. 

Flying off in 3 days, I honestly am not sure how to feel, sad for leaving my family? excited for going? Nervous for starting something new? Anxious for traveling alone for the first time? Well, maybe it's all mixed up together and now it's giving me butterflies while also giving stress. 

Everything has been packed, I might missed something but well, if anything, I could probably get them there as well, right? or not. 

"Why do you have to go at this period of time?"

"Are you sure you wanna go?"

"Is it safe there?"

"Can you even go?"

"Are there a lot of cases there?"

I've been asked by people around me, full of curiousity and worries, but honestly, I can't even answer half of them. Why? because I don't have to answer either. Fingers crossed, praying that everything will be fine while I'm there, alone, with only myself to rely on. I can't promise them anything but to study hard, stay safe, keep myself away from trouble and the crowds. 

How does my family feel about it?

They're worried, worried and keep feeling worried. Can this girl take care of herself overseas when she can't even take care of herself in her home country. I guess that's how family members would feel, especially when the youngest child in the family is going away, when she's always been someone who needs someone else to rely on. But not now, I can't just keep on being the "baby". I need to learn to be by myself too...